People said that when someone powerful hate you, they might ruin your life. Well... I didn't anger anyone powerful, but I think I've anger the God.
Yep. The almighty God. Weird, huh? Unfortunately I'm pretty sure the God hate me. Reason? He hurt my parents. And thanks to that, I'm starting to lose my faith to the God.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Fucking Human
I've been wondering for a pretty long time,
Why does human never feel satisfy over anything?
If you don't believe me, try to look back at your self.
When someone gave you a present, you'll start wanting the others to give you present as well. And you'll probably hoping for something that even better than before.
And when someone love you, you'll ended up asking them to love you even more as the time goes by.
Weird huh?
To realize that we'll never satisfy that easily, is kinda scary for me.
But isn't it what makes us human?
I just don't get it...
Why does human never feel satisfy over anything?
If you don't believe me, try to look back at your self.
When someone gave you a present, you'll start wanting the others to give you present as well. And you'll probably hoping for something that even better than before.
And when someone love you, you'll ended up asking them to love you even more as the time goes by.
Weird huh?
To realize that we'll never satisfy that easily, is kinda scary for me.
But isn't it what makes us human?
I just don't get it...
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Night Sky
Oct 3rd, 2011
I wrote this post a few days after I get back from Jaya Giri after 3 days and 2 nights camp. I was lucky that there wasn't any rain on those days. And for the first time ever, I finally slept under the stars.
At that time, I was having a though. Looking at the velvet blue sky, I noticed that no one realized that those stars are starting to fade. Then, it crossed in my mind, "If I'm gone, is there anyone who's gonna miss me?"
Sounds pathetic, huh? But that's really what I had in mind that time. Maybe none of them realize how lonely I am. I can't blame them. for that. It's not their fault. Not entirely.
It's my fault not to open my self. But I have reason for that. I don't want to get hurt again. I know that it makes me sound like an emo, but I don't give a shit about that. I don't want to get hurt. I had enough.
Anyway, that though is really hit me. My heart hurts when I realized that I might have the same fate with those stars. Same name, same fate. Ironic, isn't it?
maybe you hate me for being skeptical, but that's me. I don't have an alter ego or 2 personalities. What I have is a personality that no one could understand. And like it or not, that's me.
I wrote this post a few days after I get back from Jaya Giri after 3 days and 2 nights camp. I was lucky that there wasn't any rain on those days. And for the first time ever, I finally slept under the stars.
At that time, I was having a though. Looking at the velvet blue sky, I noticed that no one realized that those stars are starting to fade. Then, it crossed in my mind, "If I'm gone, is there anyone who's gonna miss me?"
Sounds pathetic, huh? But that's really what I had in mind that time. Maybe none of them realize how lonely I am. I can't blame them. for that. It's not their fault. Not entirely.
It's my fault not to open my self. But I have reason for that. I don't want to get hurt again. I know that it makes me sound like an emo, but I don't give a shit about that. I don't want to get hurt. I had enough.
Anyway, that though is really hit me. My heart hurts when I realized that I might have the same fate with those stars. Same name, same fate. Ironic, isn't it?
maybe you hate me for being skeptical, but that's me. I don't have an alter ego or 2 personalities. What I have is a personality that no one could understand. And like it or not, that's me.
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