Cheezy Cheese

Ever heard a phrase "Too much chocolate won't kill you"?
Well... I think that phrase is true, but if someone told you "Too much cheese WILL kill you", I think he is right!

Yesterday, my nanny finally made a macaroni with cheese.
Since it is the first time, it turns out that she put too much cheese in there.
In one hand, it taste pretty good.
But in the other hand, I also want to throw up!

So, I learn something yesterday.
Never put TOO MUCH cheese in your macaroni!

Well... IT IS HURTS!

You know that sometimes when we are running we can't just stop immediately right?
And you know that there are some school that didn't allow their student to run in the hall right?

Well... now I know why they told us not to run in the hall.
The answer is, so you won't hit your teacher if they suddenly come from nowhere!

Let me tell you something, today, I accidentally hit my teacher cause I couldn't stop my run.
And TAADAA!!! I hit him and we both fall!
Great! And just to make it even worse, my friends saw me hit him!
CRAP!!

After a pretty fast apology from me, I run away as soon as possible!
Sorry sir! Didn't mean to hit you!

First School, and then...

When I said that I hate my life, I really mean it.
You can say that I have an awful life at schoool.
No one can understand me at home, and there's one last place for me to run.

And that place is my english course.
But then, something terrible happenned.
My teacher lborrow my book and
TAADAA!!!
It was returned in an awful condition.

The only thing that crossed in my mind is never talked to that teacher ever again!
Call me childish if you want!
Hey, I'm still a kid remember?!
That's why I never like to lend my book to other people except my brother (Sylph), Big bro (Asch) and Sora.

Why?
Because books is really precious to me!
Nothing can replace them, not even game.

I just don't understand why many people in this city don't understand something called "SENSE OF BELONGING"

Just wait, and see....

I somehow starting to want a Agumon doll.
I don't know why (probably because I've been watching the episode all over again), but the point is, I'm going to start my journey to find the Agumon doll.

Just you wait and see...

Why it happens?

Today, all the student in my class came to our classmate home.
We came here to say sorry for his father death.

At that time, I was wondering why it happens.
I mean did everyone have to die and leave everyone who loved him?

It's not fair you know.
Leaving everything behind.

I never like it.

Great! Now my life is getting worse and worse!

After my father read my psychotest result, he got another reason to scold me!
Isn't it GREAT!
YEAH! IT'S FUCKINGLY GREAT!!!

Thank God he gave me something that may brighten my day!
He ask me whether I want to go to a school with dorm or not.
Well, my answer is absolutely YES!

Like hell I would stay in this place much longer!
I really really really want to get out from this house.
Well... wish me luck guys!

I HATE HIM!!!

Worst and worst.
Yup, that's my life.
I'm sick of it and I'm sick of every thing, especially my dad.

I just don't get it!
Can't he just trust me?!

I mean he's just never understand me!
Every thing that I've done is always wrong in his eyes!
And I'm sick of it!!!

If I were Timmy Turner (from Fairly Odd Parents),maybe I might wish that he IS NOT MY FATHER!!!

SCHOOL = CRAP

Its seems like it is pretty impossible for me to have a better life.
Wanna know why?
Because everytime I tough it's going to be better soon, I turns out to be worst!

I hate my life!
Everytime that I do is always wrong in their eyes!
Crap!

I mean, do you think I made a mistake when I told my teacher that she supposed to know the materials before explain them to us?
Do you think I made a mistake when I said to my mom that I hate my school?

I mean my school gave me NOTHING at all!
All they do is asking for more and more money for nothing at all!
I'm telling you, I'M SICK OF IT!!!

One thing for sure.
One day I will build my own school.
A school where the student can learn a useful stuff and not crap like the other school.
A school where all the student can enjoy their study.
A school where the student can be friend with their teacher.
A school where we can all smile.

Did I wish to much?

By the way, I was planning to humiliate my school. Wanna join me?

WHAT SHOULD I DO!

Today is the Chinese New Year and also the Valentine day.
I'm supposed to be happy since today I can get money from the angpao that was given by my father's friends.
Well, I actually happy about that.

The problem is, my mom is not in a really good condition.
Hearing that her cried in pain makes me wanna cry.

I wonder if I could do something to her.
I hate being useless you know.
I hate to admit that I could do nothing to help her.

I wish my brother is here.
I knew that he could help her.
I knew that he is better than me.
I... I have to admit that I'm kinda miss him.

How could it be possible? Don't ask me!

Well... Seems like I finally settled my problem with my brother and his ex.
Everything is back to normal now.

I don't know how its happened.
One thing for sure, I can't stay mad at him!
After all, he is my only brother!

When something worse become worst

Seems like everything is getting worse and worse!
First, my brother betrayed me, then my friends start to annoy me.
And now, just to make it worse, my brother want me to call his ex to say happy birthday!
Can't I just text her!?

Pathetic isn't it?
That's why I hate my life.
He always told me to be good to his ex.
He always treat his ex better than me.

Please!
Did I wish to much?
Let me tell you something, I'M SICK OF HIM!
It's not like I didn't like his ex or what.
It's just... I don't know...
I'm still angry to my brother when he told his ex about my problem.

I didn't like it you know.
There only two people that I want to tell about my problem.
First Asch, and the second is my brother.

When I told him about my problem I didn't hope that he could solve it.
I just want him to give me his stupid suggestion
(Such as: "Why don't you just pisoned his food?" or "JUst kick him right on his face")

See?
Do you think I'm begging him to much?

What the....

Let me tell you something, I sick of my life!
I’m sick of my fuckin’ school and I’m sick of my friends who never understand what is actually happened.
I was considering a suicide, but I don’t think I’m gonna do it.


Why?
Because if I killed my self, it will only prove that I lose with these pressures.
And I am not gonna lose in this game! Like hell I would lose!
Maybe I just feel a little bit down right now, but I don't think I would kill my self.
Not now at least.
After all, if I kill my self, I bet Asch will absolutely kill me first.

It doesn't matter how much does it hurts, Asch will always be there for me

Who am I? I don't know!

Hi,
Call me Naz if you want. I don't really care if you call me with a different name. It won't change anything right? I mean, it is not my name who determine who I am. It is my atitude who determine who I am.

Any way, nice to meet you all. I didn't really know what to say, cause I usually just say, hi, hello, good bye. and my friends told me that it is not a really good way to start your first post in your blog.

So... this is all I've got. I think that's it. I meea, what should I say next? Hmm..... Lets see.... I've already say hello... I've said what I want.... so..... I KNOW!


Good bye! See you again later!