I'm Pretty Sure That I'm Lost

Lost. Yep. That's my word for the last few centuries (?) if I might say. You might be wondering why I choose that word. At first, I don't want to admit it. But since my uncle passed away, I felt that another part of my heart collapsed and sunk in to an endless pit. It's really pathetic even for someone like me to think like that. But that's the fact. I feel so lost. Just imagine your self as a kid, wondering alone in a foreign country, without any money, and surrounded with people who talked in such a weird language. That's what happen to me. I only make everything worse by trying to deny the fact that he's no longer here. I act happy as if there's nothing in the world that could bother me in front of everyone. NO one really knows what I actually feel. I really wish I could open up a bit more and tell them about have been bothering me. But I can't just do that. I've done it once only to realize that most of them could not be trusted. In the end, they'll only hurt you. Again and again, until you stop talking about it. If you guys got enough with my depressing post, I better tell you that I also have enough of them. Unfortunately, this's the only thing that I can do. Writing. And unlike a diary, I don't mind if anyone stumble open one of my stupid posts and read them. It's not like you know me. Anyway, let's catch up with what has been happening in my life. You see, few weeks ago, I found out that the stories that were SUPPOSED to be written by my junior are actually taken from the internet. Surprised, surprised. She was actually a plagiarist. I am not going to say, "Oh my... I can't believe she done such an awful thing!" nor "How could she do such a thing?!". Me, I'll personally say, "Dude, what the f*** is wrong with you?! If you want to take someone works, then you gotta be smart! You don't even change the stupid titles nor the characters name! That's just freaking idiotic!!" Yeah. I am not angry because she took other people works. I'm more pissed because she didn't even use her head when doing it. I mean, what could be more idiotic than just copy-paste their work and print it without changing ANY words? GOD! I really can't believe her idiotic action. To be honest, I still have tons of nonsense that I want to write down, but I'll keep it for another time. My head feel so god damn heavy due too lack of sleep. I think I better meet my dearest pillow now. Ciao.