It's been a week since I move to Bandung.
It hurt and it's not easy.
But I realize that nothing will change unless I chang it my slef.
I decided to move on.
I'm gonna go with all I've got to start the new page move my live.
I realize that moving on without knowing where to move is kinda crazy.
But that's how I do it.
I mean, knowing where to move might be a smart thing.
Moving without knowing, in the other hand, is a good thing than didn't move at all.
So here I am, staring at the computer, trying to write something for my new project.
I hope everything go as the plan and I can finish the project in no tim and send it to my teacher back in Makassar.
I can't tell you how glad I am to have a fan.
My brother, can't say whether he's a fan or not, laugh when he read my very first project.
When I asked him what's wrong, he told me that the way I write it is something.
Weeks before he read that, we finally make a peace after all the childish fight we made all these time.
After we're having 'the peace declaration', my brother become the closest family member to me.
I often think that... I'll be okay without my parents as long as I have my brother by my side.
It might be true, but I also need peoples to support me.
I need more people like my brother, Asch, Sora, Viki, and Eiko.
I realize that now we're shattered around.
Me and my brother in Bandung.
Asch and Viki in Makassar.
And Eiko who's going to Japan.
I really want to finish that project A.S.A.P
Because I want them to know what I really feel all thistime.
I want them to know what's actually happened deep down in my heart.
It hurt me when I remembered that we're shattered around.
But I'm glad we're shattered.
Why?
Because when we meet again, we'll have a lot of things to talk to.
P.S: I'm thinking about joining the geotourism. My guardian already say yes. They encourage me actaully. I hope my parent would also say yes....
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
It Sucks!!!!!!!!!
Well.... I love my new school....
The room that I rent is also pretty good.
Everything is ok.
But... there still something wrong down there.
Deep in my heart.
That feeling is creeping me out.
I'm feeling kinda lonely.
I can handle it if I was in school since the kids and the teacher were nice to me.
But every time I get back to the room that I rent, that feeling is coming back.
I know that I'm the one who choose to live alone.
But still....
Yesterday, I decided to stay in my aunt place.
Call me cry baby if you want, but it still hurt in the inside.
Asch is the one who make me realize the pain.
It might sounds bad to you, but I'm grateful for that.
She's the only one who can truly understand me.
So I thank her for that.
Anyway, I just realize that my brother haven't visit me until now.
I can't blame him, can I?
I know it sounds selfish, but I want to meet him.
He might not understand me like Asch did, but he's the only family member that I can talk to if I have any problem.
Sometimes I wonder whether I make the right decision to move to Bandung.
At first, I actually want to run away.
But then, I realize that running away is not what I want.
What I really want is...
What I actually need is...
Time...
I need sometime to think about this and that.
To think about who I am.
I need to think more for my sake. I need to think more about everything that I've done.
I need to think about freedom and the other stuff.
I need to find my place.
Btw, you might still remember about the post about the text message.
The last message that I send to Asch, I regret it.
I know find the answer.
I'm a kid that was chained, deep down under the lies that I said.
I'm a kid that want to break free.
A kid that looking for the place where she belong
The room that I rent is also pretty good.
Everything is ok.
But... there still something wrong down there.
Deep in my heart.
That feeling is creeping me out.
I'm feeling kinda lonely.
I can handle it if I was in school since the kids and the teacher were nice to me.
But every time I get back to the room that I rent, that feeling is coming back.
I know that I'm the one who choose to live alone.
But still....
Yesterday, I decided to stay in my aunt place.
Call me cry baby if you want, but it still hurt in the inside.
Asch is the one who make me realize the pain.
It might sounds bad to you, but I'm grateful for that.
She's the only one who can truly understand me.
So I thank her for that.
Anyway, I just realize that my brother haven't visit me until now.
I can't blame him, can I?
I know it sounds selfish, but I want to meet him.
He might not understand me like Asch did, but he's the only family member that I can talk to if I have any problem.
Sometimes I wonder whether I make the right decision to move to Bandung.
At first, I actually want to run away.
But then, I realize that running away is not what I want.
What I really want is...
What I actually need is...
Time...
I need sometime to think about this and that.
To think about who I am.
I need to think more for my sake. I need to think more about everything that I've done.
I need to think about freedom and the other stuff.
I need to find my place.
Btw, you might still remember about the post about the text message.
The last message that I send to Asch, I regret it.
I know find the answer.
I'm a kid that was chained, deep down under the lies that I said.
I'm a kid that want to break free.
A kid that looking for the place where she belong
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I'm Absolutely LOST!!!!
As you can see... I'm moving to Bandung.... Met a hottie who turns out to be the boy friend of the owner daughter. It surely broke my heart! TTATT
Anyway... here I am..... sitting in the computer rent.... Working on my first ass... About GAME!!!!! YAAAYYY!!! XD
So let me tell you a little about my 'new life'.
I've already get to know most of my friends in my class. I also met a gamer who play the same game with me. I knew some girl that read the same manga as me. I have a really good teacher as our home room teacher. Those are the good part.
But I realize that staying alone is not a really good thing. I mean, when school is over, I walked back the my room that I rent, then stare at the ceiling....
IT'S SO GOD DAMN BORING!!!
And just to make it worse, I have NO idea how to go to another place from my place!
I think that's all that I can write for now. I hope your live is better than mine...
P.S : Wish me luck, ok?
Anyway... here I am..... sitting in the computer rent.... Working on my first ass... About GAME!!!!! YAAAYYY!!! XD
So let me tell you a little about my 'new life'.
I've already get to know most of my friends in my class. I also met a gamer who play the same game with me. I knew some girl that read the same manga as me. I have a really good teacher as our home room teacher. Those are the good part.
But I realize that staying alone is not a really good thing. I mean, when school is over, I walked back the my room that I rent, then stare at the ceiling....
IT'S SO GOD DAMN BORING!!!
And just to make it worse, I have NO idea how to go to another place from my place!
I think that's all that I can write for now. I hope your live is better than mine...
P.S : Wish me luck, ok?
Friday, July 16, 2010
Leaving With A Plan
I'm leaving to Bandung in no time. I hope everything go as the plan.
The first thing that I have to do is unpack my bag. When I'm finish with that, I think I'll as for some stuff like, "Where is the nearest bookstore?" or "How can I go to school every morning?"
Anyway, I don't think I can write as much as I do after I'm moving to Bandung. Unless I can have a 24 hours nonstop internet service or I have a modem AND my laptop is here.
The first thing that I have to do is unpack my bag. When I'm finish with that, I think I'll as for some stuff like, "Where is the nearest bookstore?" or "How can I go to school every morning?"
Anyway, I don't think I can write as much as I do after I'm moving to Bandung. Unless I can have a 24 hours nonstop internet service or I have a modem AND my laptop is here.
Monday, July 12, 2010
SNAP OUT OF IT!!!!!!!
I don't think I'll ever feel such a thing called 'peace' anymore. No offense, but that's the truth.
As you can see, I'm currently staying at my cousin's place. Today when I walked to Bang Ibam's room(Dina's older brother), I saw Dina playing Wii. You know what? I really want it. But that's not the point.
Anyway, not long after I came to that room, her brother, Bari, start kicking her for no reason. At least I don't know the reason that time. When the fight was going to start, Bang Ibam wake up from his slumber hand lock Bari Between his arm.
The fight start. Bari kick me a couple time while I was trying to protect Dina. My grandma came. Accusing that it's all Bang Ibam fault. So I told her what actually happened. Bari told her that the reason he did that is because Dina always put him under pressure. I just get silence when my grandma said that Bari is a sensitive kid that always keep everything inside. Hearing that, I want to yell at her and said that he's not the only one. But in my case, everyone are put me under the pressures.
I don't know whether this one suit it or not:
With a tear in my your eye
With a blood in my face
With the promise in our heart
With the pain that you feel
With the emptiness in my heart
With everything that we've done
With a cry that always be heard
With a cheer that never been heard
With a lies that we said
We cry and we look
We beg and we try
We finally realize everything that we lost
As you can see, I'm currently staying at my cousin's place. Today when I walked to Bang Ibam's room(Dina's older brother), I saw Dina playing Wii. You know what? I really want it. But that's not the point.
Anyway, not long after I came to that room, her brother, Bari, start kicking her for no reason. At least I don't know the reason that time. When the fight was going to start, Bang Ibam wake up from his slumber hand lock Bari Between his arm.
The fight start. Bari kick me a couple time while I was trying to protect Dina. My grandma came. Accusing that it's all Bang Ibam fault. So I told her what actually happened. Bari told her that the reason he did that is because Dina always put him under pressure. I just get silence when my grandma said that Bari is a sensitive kid that always keep everything inside. Hearing that, I want to yell at her and said that he's not the only one. But in my case, everyone are put me under the pressures.
I don't know whether this one suit it or not:
With a tear in my your eye
With a blood in my face
With the promise in our heart
With the pain that you feel
With the emptiness in my heart
With everything that we've done
With a cry that always be heard
With a cheer that never been heard
With a lies that we said
We cry and we look
We beg and we try
We finally realize everything that we lost
I'm feeling lost...
Did I ever told you about my problem? The one about my family?
Well... I've told you that I often feel like I'm alone in the crowd?
Actually, it's happen again last night.
That time I was in Bandung with my Ma, My Aunt, My Grand Ma, Dina (My cousin), Bari (Dina's little brother), Mas Isak (Their driver), and My Brother.
Anyway, Me, My Ma and Mas Isak were driving to the place where I rented a room to take some of my belonging. That's go pretty smooth if you didn't mention that we go to the wrong turn. After that we met up at a family restaurant.
I don't know what's gotten in to me, but that day I feel so gloomy. At that time, all I want is to meet my brother. I don't know how, but he always have something under his sleeves to make cheer me up.
But when we enter the family restaurant, I saw Dina sitting next to him. I know it sounds stupid and childish, but it seems like my world falling apart. I wanna yell and told her that he's my brother and she has no right to sit next to him.
I can't can I? When my tears were getting ready to come out, I said to my Grand Ma that I wanna go back to the car to have some sleep. I don't know whether she believe me or not, at leas she said yes. So I tell Mas Isak to open the car lock so I could sleep (or pretend to be sleep in this case). I cried in the car. I cried and I cried, again and again. I want to let go of all this pain, but I can't.
When I decided to text Asch so I could at least have someone to talk to, I realize that my phone is run out of credit. And it seems like I'm alone. Since there's nothing I can do, I take my binder from my bag and trying to write something. But before I can finish it, all of them were back from the restaurant. I wipe my tear and pretend that I just wake up. My brother shake everyone hands goodbye, since we're leaving to Jakarta again.
In the way bag to Jakarta, we stop in the hotel to take some of our belongings. Since I'm already done with my belongings, I sit next to Mas Isak and have a little chit chat about Dina and how she turns in to someone with a super awful mouth.
Anyway, in our way back to Jakarta, I wrote this while the other were asleep:
Again and again
That feeling comes to me
Hiding deep in my heart
In a secret place that no one know
Lying down and waiting
Waiting for the right time to end everything
Everything that exist and not
Everything including my self
I want to cry
But no tears were left
I want to scream
But I lost my voice
The feeling that comes and hurts me
The feeling that cause the pains
The feeling that I don't want to feel
The feeling that I hope I never know
Well... I've told you that I often feel like I'm alone in the crowd?
Actually, it's happen again last night.
That time I was in Bandung with my Ma, My Aunt, My Grand Ma, Dina (My cousin), Bari (Dina's little brother), Mas Isak (Their driver), and My Brother.
Anyway, Me, My Ma and Mas Isak were driving to the place where I rented a room to take some of my belonging. That's go pretty smooth if you didn't mention that we go to the wrong turn. After that we met up at a family restaurant.
I don't know what's gotten in to me, but that day I feel so gloomy. At that time, all I want is to meet my brother. I don't know how, but he always have something under his sleeves to make cheer me up.
But when we enter the family restaurant, I saw Dina sitting next to him. I know it sounds stupid and childish, but it seems like my world falling apart. I wanna yell and told her that he's my brother and she has no right to sit next to him.
I can't can I? When my tears were getting ready to come out, I said to my Grand Ma that I wanna go back to the car to have some sleep. I don't know whether she believe me or not, at leas she said yes. So I tell Mas Isak to open the car lock so I could sleep (or pretend to be sleep in this case). I cried in the car. I cried and I cried, again and again. I want to let go of all this pain, but I can't.
When I decided to text Asch so I could at least have someone to talk to, I realize that my phone is run out of credit. And it seems like I'm alone. Since there's nothing I can do, I take my binder from my bag and trying to write something. But before I can finish it, all of them were back from the restaurant. I wipe my tear and pretend that I just wake up. My brother shake everyone hands goodbye, since we're leaving to Jakarta again.
In the way bag to Jakarta, we stop in the hotel to take some of our belongings. Since I'm already done with my belongings, I sit next to Mas Isak and have a little chit chat about Dina and how she turns in to someone with a super awful mouth.
Anyway, in our way back to Jakarta, I wrote this while the other were asleep:
Again and again
That feeling comes to me
Hiding deep in my heart
In a secret place that no one know
Lying down and waiting
Waiting for the right time to end everything
Everything that exist and not
Everything including my self
I want to cry
But no tears were left
I want to scream
But I lost my voice
The feeling that comes and hurts me
The feeling that cause the pains
The feeling that I don't want to feel
The feeling that I hope I never know
Friday, July 9, 2010
I don't know
I knew that I'm the one who decided to study in a different city, but now.... I'm doubting my decision.
I know it sounds that I'm an idiot, but still....
Anyway.... we HAVE TO look everything in both side right??
So, my Ma and I we're looking for a room that was rent (kost).
We find one. It's a really nice place. I got a room that was bright and has a pretty big window.
And the lady who own that place, (she lived down stair while the rooms up stair were rented) looks like a really ice lady. I mean, she let me to have meals with them since I'm still in senior high (technically, I'm the youngest one in there).
And you know the best part??? She have a son who's really HOT!!! >///<
I mean, it's not like he have a really good body or what, I mean he's.... I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT!!!!!
You should see him by your own!
I know it sounds that I'm an idiot, but still....
Anyway.... we HAVE TO look everything in both side right??
So, my Ma and I we're looking for a room that was rent (kost).
We find one. It's a really nice place. I got a room that was bright and has a pretty big window.
And the lady who own that place, (she lived down stair while the rooms up stair were rented) looks like a really ice lady. I mean, she let me to have meals with them since I'm still in senior high (technically, I'm the youngest one in there).
And you know the best part??? She have a son who's really HOT!!! >///<
I mean, it's not like he have a really good body or what, I mean he's.... I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT!!!!!
You should see him by your own!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Count Down : 6 Hours 26 Minutes
I finally get the ticket and somehow manage to put all my clothes in 1 trunk, and 2 backpacks.
I did bring most of my stuff, but I'm still wondering about my friend. She go to a boarding school and she actually bring 3 trunks!!
What the?!
Hello!!! I' moving to a DIFFERENT city and I only bring 1 trunk! And I can't go back to my hometown every month! Unlike her, she can go back to her home once every two weeks!
Geezz....
That's whyh I never really understand girls!
I did bring most of my stuff, but I'm still wondering about my friend. She go to a boarding school and she actually bring 3 trunks!!
What the?!
Hello!!! I' moving to a DIFFERENT city and I only bring 1 trunk! And I can't go back to my hometown every month! Unlike her, she can go back to her home once every two weeks!
Geezz....
That's whyh I never really understand girls!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Count Down: Unknown
I know that I'm supposed to out of this city today.
But it seems like I'm still here. It's not like I'm the one who one it!
The only reason I'm haven't left this city is, I haven't got the ticket yet.
Let me tell you something...
I HATE MY DAD!!!
Call me ungrateful kid if you want, but that's the truth.
I'm having another fight with him again today.
And guess what? He's the one who start it!!!
AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANNA LEFT THIS PLACE A.S.A.P.!!!!!!!
But it seems like I'm still here. It's not like I'm the one who one it!
The only reason I'm haven't left this city is, I haven't got the ticket yet.
Let me tell you something...
I HATE MY DAD!!!
Call me ungrateful kid if you want, but that's the truth.
I'm having another fight with him again today.
And guess what? He's the one who start it!!!
AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANNA LEFT THIS PLACE A.S.A.P.!!!!!!!
Monday, July 5, 2010
Count Down: 1 Day Left
I haven't got any idea what to write yet.
But I actually having a fight with my father this morning.
And guess what? He's upset because of NOTHING!!!
Gee...
What's wrong with him anyway?
I've been thinking about my friends messages.
I'll talk about it now.
She send me the firs message not long after I left her place yesterday.
I gave her Mr.Squishy, my doll, as a reminder for me.
The text is like this:
ASCH:
Sorry I always forget to say 'thanks' to you for everything you gave me all this time...
..have a nice trip..
..this is a new journey for you..
Cauntion!! Be careful with a stranger!! And don't you dare to delete this message!
ME:
Thanks you sure is the best friend that I ever had.
And I won't delete it.
Dammit! You make me cry!! TTATT
It seems like you're the only one who care about me!
ASCH:
Oh well... I said that cuz I ever felt something like that too. And you'll know it soon maybe :(? I hope that I was wrong.
ME:
I don't know. But i think I'll be okay as long as you keep supporting me!
ASCH:
I will. As long as you won't forget me or ignored me.
ME:
I promise I won't. Even if I lost my memory, I promise I'll remember you.
ASCH:
Okay. I'll keep your promise, lucky boy. (I mean girl!)
ME:
You can call me boy if you want. I'm a half, remember?
ASCH:
R U CRAZY?! Even if U call your self boy, U're still a girl for me!
ME:
I might be a girl, but I'm as tough as a boy!
ASCH:
Okay, I agree with that. U R the toughest person I ever know...
...but being tough also have something fragile...
ME:
You're right. I might look tough, but I'm actually a crybaby.
ASCH:
...don't forget Ur true self...
But still steady huh? Being strong is not bad at all.
ME:
Probably not. Acting strong would only hurt my self.
But acting as a crybaby would actually hurt everyone around me.
ASCH:
But what do you prefer between them?
ME:
Acting strong. Because I'm the only one who'll feel the pain.
ASCH:
Just as I thought..
U will choose that...
U never want to make any more difficulities for them... Even they didn't know who u are? Or there is something?
ME:
I... I don't know. Can we talk about this later? I might have to think about it first.
ASCH:
Okay, I won't force you to answer. I'm sleepy. G'night.
ME:
I promise I'll tell you my anwer after I made up my mind.
G'd nite. Sleep tide.
Then we continue texting today.
This time, I'm the one who start it.
ME:
I've been thinking about your words. I just realize that I'm acting as a strong girl because I don't want to be under estimated by the other.
And... I won't help anyone everytime they got a problem. I would only help them based on my mood. But if the one that I care is in trouble, I would help them no matter how much does it cost.
ASCH:
But U still care huh? U R amazing, I think?
ME:
I dunno. I once taking a character test for KH and TOE.
And here's the result:
(In KH)
You are Riku. You don't care about anyone else as long as youhave the ones that you care. You would do anything to help the one that you care.Even entering the dark side.
(In TOE)
You're Reid. You're lazy and always acting like you don't care. But you won't mind being dragged around by your friend.You love to eat and lazing around all day long. But if your friends are in trouble, you'll stand for them at all cost.
ASCH:
That's why I said that to U, silly!
ME:
Guess so. I mean, I don't even know who I am!
ASCH:
U don't know because you don't want to be someone else nor believing your self...
U don't have to know who you are, just be ur self.
ME:
I want to be me. I want to believe my self...but I don't know how...
ASCH:
It's easy. Why don't you realize it? It's not something hard you know...
ME:
But I still don't know how...
ASCH:
I will tell you when you arrive in Jakarta. After you found the answer, tell me.
ME:
What is the question? How can I find the answer?
ASCH:
Haaahhh... Why U ask me?
This is just 4 u.
ME:
...what is the question then?
ASCH:
I don't know...maybe..."who u r?"
ME:
...that's gonna be tough...
ASCH:
I'm gonna give you a long time. Think about it while you're in Bandung.
ME:
I wonder...would it be enough?
That's the story. And now I'm having a pretty big fight with my parents. And that make me ralize who I am.
So I take my cell phone and text her.
ME:
Now I know who I am. I'm just a worthless kid that can't do anything right.
But I actually having a fight with my father this morning.
And guess what? He's upset because of NOTHING!!!
Gee...
What's wrong with him anyway?
I've been thinking about my friends messages.
I'll talk about it now.
She send me the firs message not long after I left her place yesterday.
I gave her Mr.Squishy, my doll, as a reminder for me.
The text is like this:
ASCH:
Sorry I always forget to say 'thanks' to you for everything you gave me all this time...
..have a nice trip..
..this is a new journey for you..
Cauntion!! Be careful with a stranger!! And don't you dare to delete this message!
ME:
Thanks you sure is the best friend that I ever had.
And I won't delete it.
Dammit! You make me cry!! TTATT
It seems like you're the only one who care about me!
ASCH:
Oh well... I said that cuz I ever felt something like that too. And you'll know it soon maybe :(? I hope that I was wrong.
ME:
I don't know. But i think I'll be okay as long as you keep supporting me!
ASCH:
I will. As long as you won't forget me or ignored me.
ME:
I promise I won't. Even if I lost my memory, I promise I'll remember you.
ASCH:
Okay. I'll keep your promise, lucky boy. (I mean girl!)
ME:
You can call me boy if you want. I'm a half, remember?
ASCH:
R U CRAZY?! Even if U call your self boy, U're still a girl for me!
ME:
I might be a girl, but I'm as tough as a boy!
ASCH:
Okay, I agree with that. U R the toughest person I ever know...
...but being tough also have something fragile...
ME:
You're right. I might look tough, but I'm actually a crybaby.
ASCH:
...don't forget Ur true self...
But still steady huh? Being strong is not bad at all.
ME:
Probably not. Acting strong would only hurt my self.
But acting as a crybaby would actually hurt everyone around me.
ASCH:
But what do you prefer between them?
ME:
Acting strong. Because I'm the only one who'll feel the pain.
ASCH:
Just as I thought..
U will choose that...
U never want to make any more difficulities for them... Even they didn't know who u are? Or there is something?
ME:
I... I don't know. Can we talk about this later? I might have to think about it first.
ASCH:
Okay, I won't force you to answer. I'm sleepy. G'night.
ME:
I promise I'll tell you my anwer after I made up my mind.
G'd nite. Sleep tide.
Then we continue texting today.
This time, I'm the one who start it.
ME:
I've been thinking about your words. I just realize that I'm acting as a strong girl because I don't want to be under estimated by the other.
And... I won't help anyone everytime they got a problem. I would only help them based on my mood. But if the one that I care is in trouble, I would help them no matter how much does it cost.
ASCH:
But U still care huh? U R amazing, I think?
ME:
I dunno. I once taking a character test for KH and TOE.
And here's the result:
(In KH)
You are Riku. You don't care about anyone else as long as youhave the ones that you care. You would do anything to help the one that you care.Even entering the dark side.
(In TOE)
You're Reid. You're lazy and always acting like you don't care. But you won't mind being dragged around by your friend.You love to eat and lazing around all day long. But if your friends are in trouble, you'll stand for them at all cost.
ASCH:
That's why I said that to U, silly!
ME:
Guess so. I mean, I don't even know who I am!
ASCH:
U don't know because you don't want to be someone else nor believing your self...
U don't have to know who you are, just be ur self.
ME:
I want to be me. I want to believe my self...but I don't know how...
ASCH:
It's easy. Why don't you realize it? It's not something hard you know...
ME:
But I still don't know how...
ASCH:
I will tell you when you arrive in Jakarta. After you found the answer, tell me.
ME:
What is the question? How can I find the answer?
ASCH:
Haaahhh... Why U ask me?
This is just 4 u.
ME:
...what is the question then?
ASCH:
I don't know...maybe..."who u r?"
ME:
...that's gonna be tough...
ASCH:
I'm gonna give you a long time. Think about it while you're in Bandung.
ME:
I wonder...would it be enough?
That's the story. And now I'm having a pretty big fight with my parents. And that make me ralize who I am.
So I take my cell phone and text her.
ME:
Now I know who I am. I'm just a worthless kid that can't do anything right.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Count Down : 2 Days Lef
Seems like nothing special happen until now.
Anyway, a really good guy that I knew from TinierMe, give me one of his drawing. And I really love it!
This is his drawing
I don't know whether you like it or not, but for me, that picture is sure is something!
That's the Mad Hatter and Alice and Poring in the Wonderland.
I don't think I can say anything else except a really big thanks to him.
So... Thank you Hunter_Boy!
Anyway, a really good guy that I knew from TinierMe, give me one of his drawing. And I really love it!
This is his drawing
I don't know whether you like it or not, but for me, that picture is sure is something!
That's the Mad Hatter and Alice and Poring in the Wonderland.
I don't think I can say anything else except a really big thanks to him.
So... Thank you Hunter_Boy!
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Count Down : 3 Days Left
Three days left until I have to move to Bandung.
I'm excited yet scared.
And just to make it worse,my baby sister got a fever.
I'm worried about her more than anything else right now.
I hope that she'll be better in no time.
And I also got a good news.
I finally change my cellphone today!
YAAAAYYY!!! XD
I'm excited yet scared.
And just to make it worse,my baby sister got a fever.
I'm worried about her more than anything else right now.
I hope that she'll be better in no time.
And I also got a good news.
I finally change my cellphone today!
YAAAAYYY!!! XD
Friday, July 2, 2010
Count Down : 4 Days Left
I knew that I never told you guys this... but I'm going to move to another city.
I don't think it's going to make a big difference for my friends, I mean I only got some.
Anyway, I was excited and afraid in the same time. It's not easy to move and live alone in the city that you didn't really knew.
I'm not really good at making friends you know!
One of the best thing that I can do is writing, and I don't think writing could make a big diffrence iwhile making friends...
Being left alone is already become a part of my world.
But leaving the one that I love behind?
Nah... I can't eeven imagine it.
I hate to admit that I'm scared. I mean, everyone think that I'm a tough girl.
Well... I AM a though girl when your talking about fighting!
I might not the best fighter, but I'm not an easy one.
What I really mean is, eventhough I AM a tough fighter, it doesn't mean that I can't cry right??
I don't think it's going to make a big difference for my friends, I mean I only got some.
Anyway, I was excited and afraid in the same time. It's not easy to move and live alone in the city that you didn't really knew.
I'm not really good at making friends you know!
One of the best thing that I can do is writing, and I don't think writing could make a big diffrence iwhile making friends...
Being left alone is already become a part of my world.
But leaving the one that I love behind?
Nah... I can't eeven imagine it.
I hate to admit that I'm scared. I mean, everyone think that I'm a tough girl.
Well... I AM a though girl when your talking about fighting!
I might not the best fighter, but I'm not an easy one.
What I really mean is, eventhough I AM a tough fighter, it doesn't mean that I can't cry right??
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Finally Found It
Before you start reading this post, please read my previous post
(School = Crap)
Well I think I finally find the school. And guess what?
I'm going to enter it on 18Th July!
(School = Crap)
Well I think I finally find the school. And guess what?
I'm going to enter it on 18Th July!
Not a Coward
Everytime I see the rain fall from the sky
it always remind me to the past
I remember wasting time
watching as the time fly by
Looking aftere my brother
hoping that I'll pass him one day
Day after day I waste
waiting for the opportunity to be like him
When I finally get the opportunity
I'm excited and scared at the same time
Would I be able to survive?
Am I gonna make it?
Tear start to fall on my cheeks
I started to cry
I cried in silince
I don't want anyone know
Day after day I cried
Lurking in the dark covered in tears
Realizing that I'm not brave enough
I decided that I need a hand
My guardian angel came
Saving me from all this pain
Telling me that I'm not a coward
Building up my confident
And now
The day is finally come
The day where I have to face the decision I made
The day that I'll never regret
it always remind me to the past
I remember wasting time
watching as the time fly by
Looking aftere my brother
hoping that I'll pass him one day
Day after day I waste
waiting for the opportunity to be like him
When I finally get the opportunity
I'm excited and scared at the same time
Would I be able to survive?
Am I gonna make it?
Tear start to fall on my cheeks
I started to cry
I cried in silince
I don't want anyone know
Day after day I cried
Lurking in the dark covered in tears
Realizing that I'm not brave enough
I decided that I need a hand
My guardian angel came
Saving me from all this pain
Telling me that I'm not a coward
Building up my confident
And now
The day is finally come
The day where I have to face the decision I made
The day that I'll never regret
New Skin
You might be realize that I'm changing my skin.
Well... I actually prefer my old skin, but we can't leave a comment in there!
So here's come nothing!
I choose this skin cause my friend recomended it to me.
And with another friend help, I rebuild my blog.
Hope you like it!
Catch you later!
Well... I actually prefer my old skin, but we can't leave a comment in there!
So here's come nothing!
I choose this skin cause my friend recomended it to me.
And with another friend help, I rebuild my blog.
Hope you like it!
Catch you later!
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