JUST SHUT YOUR FUCKIN' TRAP!!!

CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST SHUT YOUR FUCKIN' TRAP, PLEASE???

I NEED MY TIME!!!

JUST CUT ALL THESE FUCKIN' CRAP!!!

CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST GET YOUR ASS OUT OF THIS ROOM!!!
I actually want to yell like that in front of my cousins and my auntie.
No offense, but can't I just have my own time???

JUST STOP FIGHTING IN FRONT OF ME WILL YA?
I mean, it's just getting worse and worse!
My cousins, the oldest one in this room, start to play an idiot and weird song with his sister guitar.
And just to make it worse, he act as a crybaby!!!
I won't mind if he still a kid, but he's already 13 years old!!!
I just can't stand him you know!!!
I don't know how and I don't know why, my other cousin decided to join him!!!

On the other hand, my aunt is having a fight with my cousin (her daughter), cause she didn't want to eat.
And again and again, they do that in front of my nose!!!

GAH!!! I JUST CAN'T STAND IT!!!
CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?!

I... I don't know.....

It seems like my live has turn up side down...
I don't know how it's happened.
I mean, you know that I'm used to be alone in the crowd right???

But no.... it's become worse.
I mean, I still being alone in the crowd, but now, it feels even worse than before.

I don't know how should I say that...
But it feels like there's a big stone on my chest.
It feels hurt.
It feels even worse than what I ever felt before.

I just don't like it.
I mean, even when I'm alone, I've never felt like this before.

It feels... wrong?
I just don't know!
I felt like I've pushed to choose between the things that I don't like.
And I just don't like it!

It always feel better when I'm with Asch than when I'm with the other.
I just want to go back!!!
Not like I don't want to be in her!
I want to be here!
But I just can't stand being alone anymore!!!

I'm sick of it!!!
I'm sick cause I can't share my problem!!
I just want to meet Asch, my big bro!

I hope I can meet him soon.

THIS IS FUCKIN' TRUTH!!!!!!!!

In case you guys don't know, I actually live in Indonesia.
Well... here's the thing.

My mom, my cousin and I still in Bandung until yesterday, before we got a call from Jakarta, told us that my aunt was in ICU.
As everyone would do if their family is sick, we rash to Jakarta.

We usually take X-Trans (some sort of shuttle service), but I don't know why we take the Cipaganti (another Shuttle service) today.

No offense, but that was the WORST trip that I ever have!!!!
Hey, I didn't mean to be rude, but hey, that's the truth!!!!
Well... we were passed from one shuttle to another for FIVE TIMES!!!!
And guess what, the trip that should only take 2 for 3 ours turns out more than 5 ours!!!!


It's awful or what huh???




MORAL :
NEXT TIME YOU GO TO JAKARTA FROM BANDUNG OR BANDUNG FROM JAKARTA, DO NOT TAKE CIPAGANTI!!!!!

It's Just Boring!!!!

I've been staying in my cousin house for three day, and guess what???
I just doing the same thing again and again and again!!!!

This is actually what happen:
Morning : Wake Up, Break fast, On line
Noon : On Line, Lunch, Nap
Evening : Dinner, On Line, Sleep


ISN'T IT BORING?????!!!!!!!!

It's kinda..... boring???

I know that I might wish too much, but still...
It's feel kinda boring in here.
I know that I can on line as ling as I can.
But being left alone like this is just no fun!!!

I never though I would say this, but I wish school will start soon.

WEEE!!!!!!! And Sorry!!!

Hi guys!!!
Sorry for leaving this blog without any notification.
The truth is, my brother and I were having a trip to Singapore.
And... I JUST LOVE IT!!!
I mean, I got a new toy in there!
And that toy is called.... MRT (Massive Rapid Transport)!

Yeah... Yeah....
I know it's kinda childish...
But Like HELL I WOULD CARE!!!
I mean, I even play in the airport using the trolley!
So, it doesn't really matter how they think about you.
what really matter is, do you feel comfortable with that or not.

Many people told me that I'm childish.
But, that's me.
Even tough I'm a childish, I prefer being a childish.
Why? Because I don't have to pretend as someone else.

For me, lying to the entire world is way much better than lying to your self.
Because if you lie to the world, you will only hurt your own feelings.

ANYWAY.....
I just want you to know that, I actually miss this blog.
I mean, it doesn't matter if anyone read this blog or not.
For me, this blog is a place to express my feeling.
It's just like writing a story, but for me, blog is actually simpler.

Sorry...

Sorry I didn't post anything for a couples day.
The baby was taking almost all the time that I have.
Well, I don't mind at all.

But still I feel sorry since I can't post anything in here.
Don't worry, I'm still gonna post my life in here.
Not so intense, but I will.