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Last night, I accidentally bump to my long lost friend. Well... I didn't really bump at her. I just met her in the chat room. At that time, she said something that really shocked me. When I told her that I envy her cuz she doesn't have to change. She asked me why. I told her that I have no choice except changing my self cuz I don't wanna hurt anyone else. I told her that I could no longer show a sincere smile and laugh like the ones in the past.

Then she asked me, "who are you?". To tell you the truth, it feels like a slap on my face. It hurts. I asked her how could she said something like that to me. She told me that I'm not like who I am in the past. The warm, cheerful girl that I used to be has gone missing. It's hurt when she said told me that. But is it true?

Do I really changed? People told us that we have to grow up. But do we really have to change to grow up? That question has been spinning in my heads for years. Is there anyone who an help me answer that? I wonder.....