Is it wrong?

Okay. Just to make it short, I went to an essay competition in Yogya and win the second place. But I feel nothing inside. I feel just plainly nothing. Reason? What the judges have said.

Not long after they announce the winner one of the judges (the idiotic one) said something like this, "It's obvious that we bombarded you guys with questions. You're college student, not a High School student. If you guys are a High School student, we won't ask you guys anything complicated. If you guys are high school student, we'll only as you guys simple question like 'how are you?' and stuff. After all, what they wrote is just an essay. Which is very simple."

When that idiotic person said that, I was like "What the fuck are you talking about? Don't you know that we've been working our ass off just for this essay? Don't you know that you're nothing but a freaking idiot who was way too idiotic to understand what you've just say? Don't you even have a brain to make you realize that you make the essay contestant look like a loser just because what you've just said?"

Pardon my not so polite mouth, but I don't give a damn. My pride is like it's been torned apart just by hearing what he's just say. And thanks too that, he complatly ruin my mood for the rest of the day. And just too make it worse, my Ma called me. I knew that the reason why she called me is to congratulate me. But somehow, I ended up sobbing in the phone and make her worried.

ALL THANKS TO THAT IDIOT.

So, anyway, I'm currently writing this post in a train station. I have two reasons why I decided to write this post now. First, to keep my self sane enough to make a bright decicion. And second to keep me awake while waiting for the train. But it seems like the second one is not really helping. And now I feel really sleepy...

P.S.: I do hope there's someone who can understand my feeling right now... (._.)