I have to write. I really mean it. Things have been happening around me, and I like none of them. I write this as the anchor to my sanity. I'm afraid that if I stop writing, I might not be able to know who I am.
Two days ago, one of my unknown relative passed away. And I could see the pain in my grand ma face, which trigger the pain in my heart.
A day after that, yesterday, my nanny (who's kinda like my second mother) lost her father. And again, I cried. I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to except some of my friend. Even though I've talked to them, what I really need is a comforting hand that'll erase my tears, pat my head, and embrace me while I cry.
And those kind of people is nowhere around me right now.
Just to make it worse, my cousin has a high fever. He refused to see the doctor. Thanks to that, I could hardly sleep last night.
You might be wondering why on earth did I not write this post last night. Well, to be honest, last night, when I got the news about my nanny's father, I cried in silence since I slept next to my cousins. I keep crying and crying until I finally fell asleep without knowing it.
It hurts to see the tears from those whom you loved.
But it hurts even more when you know that you can't sit next to them to erase their tears and ease their pain.
Owwhh..why u have to feel sad too? Even if you far apart, u still have to cheer them. U dont have to be beside them.
ReplyDeleteI know. But I often wish that I could be right next to them and give them a hug...
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