You see, my uncle passed away yesterday. The day before, Friday, my father called me and we talked about some stuffs. At that time, he told me that our driver, which is more like an uncle to me, is hospitalized. I was shock and really sad. Right after we hanged up, I started to cry. I am not sure what happened but my chest feel so god damn thigh.
Yesterday, when I was in school, I called my nanny. After all, she's my uncle's wive. When I called her, I heard her crying in the other side. Since I can't stop my tears, I rushed to an empty class room and start crying as well. My nanny is my 2nd ma. She's always there when I need her.
We talked a little. Only a little since she has to take care of her husband. But at that time, she asked me to forgive her husband mistake if he has any. When I heard that, I cried even more. Because for me, he never made any mistake. I'm the one who made lots of mistake.
Later on that day, around 3 p.m., I was in the science lab with my teacher and some of my friends. We were the for the preparation of the open house. At that time, my father called. When I saw his name in the caller ID, I have a bad feeling. A real bad one. I am not sure how, but I knew that something is wrong. And I was right.
He's gone.
I'll never be able to see him ever again.
Today, I got a 6 o'clock flight to Makassar. I was sleeping through most of the flight. When I woke up, I kinda played with a baby next to me. I laugh and laugh. But when the plan landed, I stopped laughing. I finally remember why am I here. I could hardly hold my tears. But since I wear a hat, glasses, and I have a pretty long bangs, none realize that I cried.
As absurd as possible, I wish when I woke up tomorrow morning, it turns out that everything is just a dream. That he's not dead. That I came here only for vacation.
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